We have had two doctor’s appointments for baby Wagley in the past week.  There has only been one really big change since our last update, my belly.  It is rapidly filling up with fluid and I am officially measuring 45 weeks at 34 weeks!  Because the amniotic fluid is pushing up into my lungs, making it difficult to breath, we are officially going into the hospital tonight to be induced.

This past week our plate got a little more full.  We found out that Evan’s mother was diagnosed with Stage-4 breast cancer, which has spread to her colon, stomach and bones.  She was rushed into emergency surgery and continues to be monitored in the hospital while they determine the best course of action for treatment. Our initial thought was, “how much more can we take right now”?  The last couple weeks I have repeated in my mind over and over; “Just make your mess your message”.  This is all a part of our life story.  We have the perspective that there is a purpose in what we are going through and what we are doing here in life.  Through all of these trials we have never lost faith.  We have learned that it’s ok to get angry, but not to stay angry.  I think it is a tragedy when we don’t try to take the time to find the meaning or purpose of what we are going through.  It seems to always be there, but sometimes we are so focused on the negative, we forget the reason why. We must fight the battle in front of us and persevere.

Through this entire experience we have been able to recognize the wonderful things with which we have been blessed.  The good things have been more obvious because we have something with which to compare it.  Our lives will go on.  But not just go on, but go on with joy!  It always seems to go better than we ever could have imagined.  If you ask God for an answer and don’t get a “yes”, don’t be let down.  The opposite of “yes” isn’t always “no”.  In my experience with God, the opposite of yes is usually, “I have something better in store for you”.  I’m grateful that God has so much love for us.  The best is yet to come!